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Tomball, TX, United States
My name is Laurie. I'm 34 and I live in a suburb of Houston, TX. My life isn't super exciting or ultra dramatic, but I love it! My blogs are just a peek into my life as I know it. I'm quite random and have an opinion on everything, but I love everyone's aspect on things, even if I disagree. The world would be quite boring if not! :-)

3/08/2010

Weekend Festivities... and Struggling!

Hello to one and all...
Our lovely Jil and her beau are officially married and are now on their honeymoon. It was a beautiful wedding for two beautiful people, and I am SOOOO incredibly happy for them. Guess who caught the bouquet? Hmm... well that would be me!! Muahaha! I certainly wouldn't object if I were next in the wedding festivities! :-)

I forgot my camera for the wedding, but I have all of the cameras that were placed on the tables at the reception. I'm going to develop them for Jil just so she has one less thing to do.. Plus, I got a picture of my man smiling in a picture (he NEVER smiles in pictures!)... I'll get doubles so I can snatch it! MUAHAH! I'm evil today. :)

I've been struggling a bit lately about quite a bit of things. Although I've had RNY gastric bypass surgery, that doesn't define me. Besides that, I don't have the same struggles anymore that I once had. I'm 2.5 years out now, and can consume an average amount of food. I can't eat a ton, which is a great thing, but I know I can eat a whole lot more than I used to. And sometimes I do. I've been finding that a lot of times I relate more to blogs that are in no way related to RNY. I still read and relate to all my RNY and Lap Band friends for certain, as I really feel a connection with all of them, and honestly they're probably feeling a lot of the same things I am. I guess the phase that I'm in now is just trying to find my own identity. Who am I now that I'm relatively at goal? And where do I go from here? I like to think of myself as someone who is always in transition, because being stagnant in life is just plain boring. I just don't know what I should be focusing my efforts on lately. I am sure I'm just rambling and not making much sense, but this is my "journal" so I get to vent even if it's just a bunch of blubbering words! hehe

I guess the biggest thing is that I'm lacking focus. I'm not sure what aspect of my life I want to focus on. I wonder if it's the weather that's making me freak out...!? It's been a long winter for Houston. It's normally spring time weather by now and it's still cold. I always feel rejuvenated in the spring, and now my spring has been delayed... BOO!

Anyway, I will stop venting for now... but just wanted to get some crap out of my head! :)
Love to you all!!!

7 comments:

Janine said...

I think you are right that at your stage of your journey you are trying to identify who you are. It is so easy to get caught up in this "I had a gastric bypass bubble".

For me I hope that I will be able to have kids and therefore start on a new part/adventure in my life while continuing to be a part of the WLS community.

Falon said...

I look forward to the moving on and moving past the WLS surgery is your whole life's work phase. After all, it is a tool not a hobby. What kind of activites do you enjoy?

Laurie (GastricGirl.com) said...

Yes, after 2.5 years, I need to move beyond making WLS the center of my life.. It's part of me, but in no way defines me!

I have so many varied interests, but I need to venture out in that department too. Music, shopping, travel, and of course being with my family and friends are way up there for me.

Donna said...

You know, when I switched to more of a tri/health blog and not so much of post-op life, I lost a lot of readers, but triathlon is my thing. Part of me didn't even feel the need to include that I had RNY, but then again, if a post-op reads it, I want them to know it's possible.

You'll find your inspiration -- but you are way more than just "Gastric Girl" She's a part of you, but doesn't define you as a person. *hugs*

SeaShore said...

As I get closer to my goal weight, I'm questioning, too. I think it's natural after focusing so long on weight loss that there's a bit of anxiety about where that focus goes now. We all need goals to strive for, and you're right: Some how staying the same seems boring (even though we all want to maintain our goal on the scale!)

Liza said...

Hi Laurie, long time no speak! I totally get this post. Not from the WLS perspective (as it never happened for me), but from the perspective of what is going on in my life??? I am struggling with a lot of the same questions myself lately. Unfortunately I don't have any answers for either of us, but I just wanted you to know you are not alone in this. Take care, Liza

LissaLee said...

I so relate to this post. I am only 11 months out, so I am still trying to get to goal but I find that I can eat way more than I used to. Going back to the rules of RNY is what is keeping me going. Sometimes I actively try to eat more than I should, it reminds me of the times before RNY when I wasn't so limited in what I can eat and the quantity. It's backwards and no productive but it happens. I don't know if 11 months out is too early to be having these feelings, but I do! I'm a little under 20 lbs way from my final goal but it seems like a monster mountain to climb at this point :) Good luck to you!